Posted by Ange | 1 Comment
Today I turn 29.
That’s 1 year away from 30, folks.
Knowing that 30 is just around the corner has forced me to reflect a lot (like, a LOT a LOT) this week.
Some days I feel like I’m where I should be: good job, good home, awesome cats, awesome husband.
Some days I feel like I’m so far behind: I struggle to know where I want to be in 3 years, I waver on whether or not I want kids, if I want to stay living in Calgary, if we want to move to the US, so many things.
I wonder, shouldn’t I have this figured out by now?
And, I guess the answer is, No.
Maybe, if I was supposed to have it figured out, it would be. But…..it isn’t.
Moving towards the be three-oh, I want to be 29 with intention. I find a lot of times I just “do” without much of an intention behind it. I don’t always know where I want to be in 6 or 12 months, and, so, I just go.
Not this year.
This year I want to be sure I have an intention behind what I’m doing so I can be the best me at 30 that I can possibly be.
- Focus on fitness. In 2013 (after turning 30) I’m going to run a marathon. Leading up to this I want to focus on fitness and really and truly being healthy
- Focus on work. I’m not sure if I want to stay at my current job (lack of work-life balance for months on end kinda sucks) but I also like the opportunities it gives me. This year, I’m going to give my job my all. I received a bad review this year and instead of beating myself up for it, I’m going to take those points and be better. I’m interested to see where that will take me.
- Focus on being a wife. I can be selfish. Really, super selfish. It’s not always fair to The Cowboy. This year I want to work on putting us first, not just me. If I do one day decide we want little Cowpokes running around, I want us to be the best us we can possibly be.
- Focus on forgiving myself. I beat myself up a lot. Over little things. Over not saying the right thing. It needs to stop. People make mistakes. I really need to accept that and just move on.